so.mel decides to invite a friend over.mind you a friend that at some point asked if he could sleep with her.though she refused him i cant help but think,that he is not still yet trying.so what do i do/ i lose it.i drive like a maniac and lose it.i start a fight or one started and i say how much i hate her and how much i'd like to hurt her.damn.so i guess we have broken up.officialy.she said shes leaveing.this is not working well.and i'm tired of the bull.all the bull.i have to say to myself how much she dont really love me.though she clames to.she doesn't.man i love that girl.but she is actualy the worst for me.she'll never be happy,and i wont be happy as long as she wont change.so why do i miss her already? because i know.i really know how painful and hollow it will be inside of me without her.but,it must be.it must be.