some one told me i should try and start to create to turn a negative into a positive.so i started write songs.i can think in melody so its easy for me.all these songs are directed toward my wife.obviously this woman inspires good in me and also bad.so i guess shes here to teach me.i'm learning.who knows where we are headed.all i know is its going to be a rough ride.something good has to come of all this.i will continue theropy and song writeing.maybe i'll record them on a cd and perform.its all good if that happends.i want her to really undertsand what it is that i feel.not to take it for granted,and to see what damages are done.so that maybe if we remain or split up she will never forget how messed up things get when love is left out of the equation of two people who suposed to be in love.