i feel like i'm dieing.i dont want to be like this for ever.i wish i could take someything,do something or be someplace where all this doesn't matter.i wish i could be some one else,be someplace else and see other people who are happy and wont hurt me with any thing.i want to be alone.just me.just my thoughts and sorrow.all my pain put into a jar and thrown into the ocean.i want to be normal.simple and happy.away from all this shit that i'm sure wants me dead.i wish i was not so selfish,but i must be.i have to want better for me.if i dont.i'll die.