today we went to couples theropy.wow.there was one second where i just started to cry.without any warning.my tears just exploded out of me.i felt so vulnerable and some how releaved to finaly cry out of sadness and not out of sheer anger.and my wife rubbed my back as i cried into my hands.it was the first sign of comfort i have had from her insome time.we talked about why we are there and so forth and so on.and i'm hopeing this works.i can see where it can.i hope we can reep all the benefits this can bring.i love you baby.