so yesterday we had an arguement that seemed less like the typical arguments we ususaly have had.i believe shes afraid of geting devorced.i guess for the exact same reasons why i do.the drastic change in lifestyle would be very hard at this point.so why do the things she does? i dont know,i just want to undertsand what seems un undertsandable.i feel like i have an ancor around my heart.i feel heavy and angry.she views me as lazy,lazy yet iam the single one suporting her and she wants for nothing.yet i do.i want for so much more.god will you send me a better situation? will you give us a clean slate and fill me with love once again,the kind of love that wont hurt so much? maybe every one who eventualy reads these lines think me a foolbut is it really foolish to love unconditionaly? i do say it is a fools heart that loves unwisely.iam unwise,blind,foolish.yes but so very much in love.in this i swear never to love like this again if i do not recover from these dark days.i just want to be quiet.