so now i'm sleeping outside of the house on some nights.i wish i could do it more consistantly but of course there are some draw backs.i dont know.this whole seperation thing is kind of silly.like were all acting in a bad soap opera.its unreal.the longer i saty away the longer i want to stay away.we dont fight any more but,were not really talking either.not that i dont want to,just that i have little to say.i dont want to stur things with mel.i refuse another argument.and i'm tired of reliving all the stuff we have been through.i just want to get better.