slowly truth coms out i guess.my truth hers,well.maybe in the end i will go.its not the end yet.i'm thinking that maybe i should have left when it all came out.why did i stay? i have learned that never agin will i allow this kind of crap in my life.no matter what.i forgave.and that was generous enough.but,i think that next time i will have to preserve my self better.i know that sounds selfish.but i think i deserve some selfishness here.its so stupid.and feelings are to valuable to be undermined.the hurt comes from the beliefe that we were a family.and you never expect hurt like this from family.but its true what they say.''family will hurts you the most.''i love my wife even after all this.but i gotta love me more.