ihave thought of suicide.lately its not as strong as it has been in the past.but,i was thinking about telling someone today.i wanted to tell my theropist but our time ran out.it always does.so whats going to happen here. to me to us? i love her that deep.but i'm too much of a coward to pull the fucking trigger. and to much of a fool to let her know cuz all she'd do is run.