i broke down at theropy and said that if its over i dont want to see my wife again.i couldnt help it.i'm confused and hurt and angry and prety much broken...but,foolishly i'm hopeful.is it what ive been praying for? is it because the great spirit is guiding my heart as i have asked? i came hoem,and mel came later.she was not angry but told me some things that i found surpriseing. she said.''i dont know how to help you'' i told her that i gues i need to help me..then,she said.that she wont give up if i dont..and that there is something still here,that we just have to find it.rediscover each other..my jaw almost dropped.because here i am thinking she didn't care.does she? or is she just saying what i want to hear? all i know is simple.dispite all this.even in my darkest anger toward her.i still love that women.i want to fight the good fight.