i'm not sure.im going to theropy for anger but,my depression is not being addressed.maybe i should bring it up.i'm sick.and the idea of killing myself is getting to be a burned.like a weight on me.wish i died.i'm too chicken shit to do my self.besides how would i do it? bullet in my head? haning? cutting my wrist in a tub of warm water? poisoning my self? i thought if i shoot myself i will wait till she comes home and do it in her presence.just to show her how fucked up i have become.but for what? just so she can go on living? thats no fare either. yesterdy.was the first day i did not miss her.i did not care if she was on the net for half the night.i did not care if she was out or not.i just did not care half as much.i cant wait for the day that she has no affect on me any more.i wish i was so in love with her.wish i could turn it off.