so whats going on?
shes workinga new job and seems to be happy,i'm atempting to move on and want to be happy.
so i will.meet new people,fall for a nice girl.laugh for a change.
shes not as inbeted in me as she once was.i miss her.still love her.but,and thers always a ''but'' i can see detaching from her.i can see geting an apartment and moveing on,i can see going to school and trying for me,for once.

every thing has its sereal feel to it.familiarity is strange now,and strangers feel familiar.what exactly has happend to me.am i just existing?
i know i hear ''its not about you.''
am i really that alone on this earth? has it all excaped me some how?
did i miss the fucking bus here,and now am stranded in some strange land where nothing is wright?
its actualy very scary.i dont understand much of life anymore.